I still find it strange - human, beautiful, and necessary - but strange nonetheless that we can feel such earnest love for people we have never met. Philip Seymour Hoffman was my absolute favourite actor, my longest running crush, an artist with such depths of humanity that I sometimes found him unbearable to watch. I feel love, loss, sadness, admiration, and gratitude. I feel silly and selfish for these very feelings, as I cannot imagine the pain of those near and dear to him - my heart goes out.